Keepin’ it real…
I spent the last 30 minutes sobbing.
My husband thinks I’m losing my mind.
When this kind of emotional roller coaster hits me, it’s not pretty.
I have that ‘ugly’ cry that Beth Moore talks about. Like, you can’t go anywhere for an hour.
And you have to use your neti pot again.
Many years ago, I was uncontrollably sobbing for hours a day for about a week and I asked a trusted Dr about it and he said to try taking St. John’s Wort capsules. He said it might help and it won’t hurt you. Hmmm, I always like to try things that don’t require a prescription and are close to natural. So I tried it. The sobbing stopped. I felt better. Did God place this man in my path to help with this?
Since I took it was I not relying on God to take my emotional chaos away?
Was it really the St. John’s Wort or was in all in my head?
I don’t know any of this. I know God loves me and doesn’t want me to waste my days sobbing.
Then years later after that, I was doing a 7 day juice fast and stopped all my supplements (I only take vitamin D3, multi and the SJW) because of all the nutrients I was getting from the juicing.
Within 3 days I was sobbing. Not til hours later, did I realize I had stopped the SJW. Ugh, could there be something to it?
I don’t know.
But I know that I always take it now.
So fast forward a few years to yesterday… I’m doing this 7 day Thrive plan with TONS of veggies, fruits and good stuff. So I didn’t take my vitamins or SJW for a few days. Not on purpose, I just forgot. I’m irritated with the complicated recipes in the plan so I’m already frustrated. Then this morning I just broke.
Stuff that DOESN’T MATTER and won’t matter tomorrow were too big for me to process.
The house is a wreck
I’m fat… still…
I didn’t lose ONE STINKIN’ OUNCE yesterday after eating all that green stuff
I cannot keep up with my grey roots
Why can’t someone come up with a sock that doesn’t slip down into your tennis shoes???
You see my dilemma?
Don’t act like you’ve never had these days.
Once my ugly cry was done, my poor husband decided to run my errands for me. I think he might be running away because he’s been down this road before. Once I go clean out a drawer or a closet, I’ll be fine.
Once I remind myself that God is in control of absolutely EVERYTHING and I’m in control of NOTHING I’ll be fine.
How do we keep things simple on days when we feel like we’re drowning? FOCUS ON THE GOOD.
I have friends in other countries who are LITERALLY putting their lives in danger every single day to tell someone about Jesus. People are suffering (really suffering, not the kind of suffering in America we know… seriously suffering) all over the world.
FOCUS ON THE GOOD OF HIS LOVE.
I will pick one person today to focus on and pray for. God will bring someone to my mind today to dwell on and meditate on. I will focus on His sacrifice for me and humanity and try to love someone today.
That’s all we can do, right?? Just one day
Just one person
Just one prayer
because there’s JUST ONE GOD and He came to save us all. All we have to do is ask Him to come in to our hearts. Romans 10:13
That’s when I have these days, when I forget that I’m really a child of the King.
That’s how I will…
Keep it Simple,